It's been 20 years since I began learning about my spiritual path, practicing and guidance. I've had a lot of troublesome experiences at the start, when I began opening up to the psychic realm. I mentioned one of my negative encounters before in the first entry Dark Night of the Soul back in February.
One of my presents in 2008 was a crystal pendulum. This started everything. The moment I used it, it opened a door. I was new to the mystical side and read books, magazines and online stories. Sometimes I found the pendulum moving towards objects to spell out words and sentences. I wanted to find out if anyone else was having the same thing I did. It was something I wanted to identify with and get feedback on. At this time I was a new mum in a difficult household.
Becoming aware of spirits while using techniques and the crystal pendulum, done as a beginner, didn't go down well with other people. When I was meditating, I always got interrupted on purpose by a narcissist ex. Also I fell out with friends and family members who didn't want anything to do with me. The pendulum changed me. I dressed differently, ate different and spoke to the unseen. I ended up in hospital after having an accident.
Soon back home, my visions intensified. During this time I had many weird experiences with spirits including one mentioned in my previous Dark Night of the Soul post. It made me very physically ill. Also I ended up on a severe diet as guided by a certain spirit. I call it a Ghost Diet! I looked so thin and my immune system was low. I caught a horrible strain of bronchitis as well as vomiting so much. Nurses and an occupational therapist visited me each week. Recovery was gradual. but I started to get better. A year later I was much healthier thanks to staff helping me in the in/out-patient care.
I soon learned through guidance and lessons how to go about it properly with using protection and shielding. Going through it at the beginning was exciting but I did this alone and was open. If only I knew how to do this properly. I will say that if you're eager to learn, shield yourself first and carry with you protective crystals. The first "messages" you get won't all be from who you think they are. Put away the pendulum and don't use it for another week or so. Please don't follow the urge to use it everyday if you're new. They can be addictive.
Ask people for advice about this. Connect with psychics and mediums to go about this journey. Never go on any diet that you haven't told your doctor about. If you feel really distressed, call a doctor and speak to a therapist. Tell a loved one. There is help out there. If you can hear/see spirits, it's because you have a natural psychic gift and you can discuss it with others like yourself for help and suggestions.
More of my experiences in Dark Night of the Soul will be posted soon.
Storm Valkyrie
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